Monday, July 2, 2012
Attempt at more frequent posts
So in an attempt to post more often, I've downloaded "blogger" for my phone. Who thinks it'll work and who thinks I'll still post infrequently. We'll see I guess! = )
Sunday, March 11, 2012
Nightmare of a Sunday
**TMI warning. If you don't want to read about it don't read this post. This is a journal for me as well as family to follow us.**
So last Sunday was the worst day of our lives. We never want to repeat that day if at all possible! We were expecting our sweet baby in September (not sure if I had blogged about it yet). Anyway, we were looking so forward to welcoming this new blessing into our lives.
Well, Friday started off normal until the evening. I started having some bleeding. This wasn't to concerning because I had a pocket of blood next to my amniotic sack. My doctor confirmed that and told me not to worry. Saturday the bleeding continued, and into Sunday. I woke up Sunday after sleeping in until 11:30am with some cramping. This is definitely something you DON'T want to experience while preggers. I texted my girlfriend and she urged me to go into the ER. I didn't want to of course because I would have to figure where to have my kids go, and I didn't want to come to grips just yet about what was actually happening.
John came in to discuss the grocery list and saw me leaning over our bed. I was hurting. John could tell. He came over and asked if I was ok, which of course I wasn't. He hugged me, told me we were going to the ER and it was non-negotiable. So John ran the kids to my friends, came home got me and headed to the ER. We got there and checked me in and got to our room. When we walked in, the nurse who was in the room asked, "so what's going on today?" I burst into tears. John told her we were thinking I was going through a miscarriage.
They got me into the gurney, I calmed down so I could answer questions and they did a fetal heart tones. Nothing. That was devastating. They kept saying that its hard to find and that they have a better machine. They were saying it could be a UTI. I knew it wasn't. While we were waiting for what came next (doctor's exam, pelvic etc.) I felt like I had to go to the bathroom, lots of pressure and cramps. I walked to the bathroom and as I walked in felt a gush. Luckily the nurse was already walking my way. She looked at me, I said help, she got me situated to get back to my room. As I walked into my room, the 2nd gush. My heart dropped. After the nurses got me cleaned up and into bed they had the doctor come in to do the pelvic. He confirmed that it was a complete miscarriage meaning I wouldn't need a D&C. Thankfully.
He was very sweet. John was amazing. I was a wreck. Once we were discharged and got home I stayed in bed for the rest of the night. John took off Monday and took care of me. My energy was zapped, I was mourning the loss of our baby, our future, our newest blessing and my kids were heartbroken, especially Brookie who kept saying; "I don't want the baby to leave." H.E.A.R.T.B.R.E.A.K.I.N.G.
It was an emotional week. For someone who doesn't cry, I sure cried A LOT. Now that we are a week out things seem a little more normal. I'm still sad and asking a million and ten questions but I know that this little one was only in my belly for 11 weeks 6 days for a reason. We will never forget our little peanut. We chose a name, Riley Vitus. We are getting tattoos for this baby. We never knew if it were a boy or a girl but we want to commemorate him/her. We will always have sweet Riley in our hearts. Thanks to everyone for listening (I'm a talker it helps me), for being there, your kind words, prayers, etc. They have meant the world to us!! We love you all!
So last Sunday was the worst day of our lives. We never want to repeat that day if at all possible! We were expecting our sweet baby in September (not sure if I had blogged about it yet). Anyway, we were looking so forward to welcoming this new blessing into our lives.
Well, Friday started off normal until the evening. I started having some bleeding. This wasn't to concerning because I had a pocket of blood next to my amniotic sack. My doctor confirmed that and told me not to worry. Saturday the bleeding continued, and into Sunday. I woke up Sunday after sleeping in until 11:30am with some cramping. This is definitely something you DON'T want to experience while preggers. I texted my girlfriend and she urged me to go into the ER. I didn't want to of course because I would have to figure where to have my kids go, and I didn't want to come to grips just yet about what was actually happening.
John came in to discuss the grocery list and saw me leaning over our bed. I was hurting. John could tell. He came over and asked if I was ok, which of course I wasn't. He hugged me, told me we were going to the ER and it was non-negotiable. So John ran the kids to my friends, came home got me and headed to the ER. We got there and checked me in and got to our room. When we walked in, the nurse who was in the room asked, "so what's going on today?" I burst into tears. John told her we were thinking I was going through a miscarriage.
They got me into the gurney, I calmed down so I could answer questions and they did a fetal heart tones. Nothing. That was devastating. They kept saying that its hard to find and that they have a better machine. They were saying it could be a UTI. I knew it wasn't. While we were waiting for what came next (doctor's exam, pelvic etc.) I felt like I had to go to the bathroom, lots of pressure and cramps. I walked to the bathroom and as I walked in felt a gush. Luckily the nurse was already walking my way. She looked at me, I said help, she got me situated to get back to my room. As I walked into my room, the 2nd gush. My heart dropped. After the nurses got me cleaned up and into bed they had the doctor come in to do the pelvic. He confirmed that it was a complete miscarriage meaning I wouldn't need a D&C. Thankfully.
He was very sweet. John was amazing. I was a wreck. Once we were discharged and got home I stayed in bed for the rest of the night. John took off Monday and took care of me. My energy was zapped, I was mourning the loss of our baby, our future, our newest blessing and my kids were heartbroken, especially Brookie who kept saying; "I don't want the baby to leave." H.E.A.R.T.B.R.E.A.K.I.N.G.
It was an emotional week. For someone who doesn't cry, I sure cried A LOT. Now that we are a week out things seem a little more normal. I'm still sad and asking a million and ten questions but I know that this little one was only in my belly for 11 weeks 6 days for a reason. We will never forget our little peanut. We chose a name, Riley Vitus. We are getting tattoos for this baby. We never knew if it were a boy or a girl but we want to commemorate him/her. We will always have sweet Riley in our hearts. Thanks to everyone for listening (I'm a talker it helps me), for being there, your kind words, prayers, etc. They have meant the world to us!! We love you all!
Thursday, February 2, 2012
Oops, its been WAY to long!
WOW, has it really been close to a year since I last posted? How embarrassing. I need to get back into the blogging world! I enjoy sharing and journal about our lives and knowing that I will have it to share with my family for years to come! A lot has happened but yet nothing that new and extraordinary.
Aidan is in 1st grade now and 6.5 years old! He loves school and is a natural born leader! He is constantly helping others and is "teaching" his sister how to do things. He is currently playing basketball and LOVES it!! Oh my word! He is quite the celebrator! He played soccer this fall and plays at every recess, or that's what he tells me. He'll play baseball (coach pitch) this year and he's excited to start again! Aidan is doing boy scouts as well and is enjoying it a lot as well!
Brooke is enjoying being a little mom and playing with her dolls all day. She is a fiery and moody little girl and very expressive! We love her little mood swings and are wondering what the teenage years will bring! We might be in trouble. She wants to do everything that her brother is doing. She plays at his basketball practice and wants to be out with him. She is our active little spitfire!! We just love it!
John is super busy as usual with UPS. Lay-offs have started and he has been laid off once so far this year (yesterday), and was then called in about 30 minutes later and asked to work. So I guess technically he wasn't laid off. I don't get it. He was out late and had a ton of work. They really needed him yet called him off?? I don't get it. He loves to play with our kids and is such a good daddy. I just wish we had more hours in our weekends because they fly by WAY to fast!!
As for me, I keep busy with the kids mostly, but also co-coordinating the Moppets program for our MOPS group. I also am still doing the childcare for the Womens bible study. I no longer am nannying which makes me sad because they were like family since I had been with them for 5 years, but kids grow-up and I am no longer needed. I am also keeping busy with my Arbonne business and growing and teaching others about how to keep themselves healthy and safe. I am striving to help educate others that what they are using is potentially causing them cancer! Scary thought.
Anyway, this was sort of an update on everything, and I am hoping to continue to update the blog but we shall see if that actually happens!! Hugs to you all! = )
Aidan is in 1st grade now and 6.5 years old! He loves school and is a natural born leader! He is constantly helping others and is "teaching" his sister how to do things. He is currently playing basketball and LOVES it!! Oh my word! He is quite the celebrator! He played soccer this fall and plays at every recess, or that's what he tells me. He'll play baseball (coach pitch) this year and he's excited to start again! Aidan is doing boy scouts as well and is enjoying it a lot as well!
Brooke is enjoying being a little mom and playing with her dolls all day. She is a fiery and moody little girl and very expressive! We love her little mood swings and are wondering what the teenage years will bring! We might be in trouble. She wants to do everything that her brother is doing. She plays at his basketball practice and wants to be out with him. She is our active little spitfire!! We just love it!
John is super busy as usual with UPS. Lay-offs have started and he has been laid off once so far this year (yesterday), and was then called in about 30 minutes later and asked to work. So I guess technically he wasn't laid off. I don't get it. He was out late and had a ton of work. They really needed him yet called him off?? I don't get it. He loves to play with our kids and is such a good daddy. I just wish we had more hours in our weekends because they fly by WAY to fast!!
As for me, I keep busy with the kids mostly, but also co-coordinating the Moppets program for our MOPS group. I also am still doing the childcare for the Womens bible study. I no longer am nannying which makes me sad because they were like family since I had been with them for 5 years, but kids grow-up and I am no longer needed. I am also keeping busy with my Arbonne business and growing and teaching others about how to keep themselves healthy and safe. I am striving to help educate others that what they are using is potentially causing them cancer! Scary thought.
Anyway, this was sort of an update on everything, and I am hoping to continue to update the blog but we shall see if that actually happens!! Hugs to you all! = )
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