Annoyed...

Ok, so I'll blog more about the 4th of July later, but I need a little bit of time to vent really quickly. So skip this post if you don't want to read/listen to me vent. There is your warning.

Anyhoo, as you may know from my last post, I have been diagnosed with diabetes. Well after I got off the phone with the midwife, I called my mom and let her know since she would be my "ear's" at the appointment so that I don't miss anything. Then I thought I would try John on a whim that he actually might pick up the phone even though I knew it was the time of morning that he was about to start leaving the building for his route. He picked up and I told him that the test was positive. He knew what I was talking about because we had discussed this the night before for like 2 seconds quite literally.

Anyhoo, I told him that my sugars were high and that it would be safe to say that I have diabetes. He said to me, "What does that mean now?" I told him that it meant that I had a few appointments next week to make that I would need to learn a few things about the "diabetic diet" and testing my sugars and such. His response was ok, talk to you later. I understand that he needed to get to his route and that was probably one of the worst times that I could call. Oh well, I was super overwhelmed at the thought of what was going to be happening over the next 7 months and just wanted him to be somewhat supportive. He didn't even say, hey can we talk about this more later I need to get going.

So I totally expected to have a conversation with him when he got home from work. HA not!! Not only has he completely avoided any conversation about the diabetes, I was telling him of a gal I know from HS and she found out a month ago she also has diabetes (she's due in August though) and she has been in pre-term labor and has been going to the hospital a lot over the course of the last 2 weeks or so to stop her labor and such. I brought that up with John last night and asked how that would work since if my calculations are right, and I went through the same thing, that would put me doing that sort of thing in the middle of peak. Peak is blacked out and no time off allowed regardless, not to mention he works 12+ hour days and that's when he earns the most money throughout the year. We REALLY need him to work. He looked at me and snapped saying, "I don't know I haven't filled out the paperwork yet." At that point I looked at him and didn't say another word.

Right now trying to discuss this with him is making him more like a snapping turtle than a supportive hubby. I know I was talking to him at the end of a LONG and frustrating day for him but still, he really didn't need to snap. After all he isn't the one going through the diabetes thing and going to have to test sugars 5 times a day and have appointments at least once a week. I know he has to put up with me and he is doing a great job at that since I am more crabby while prego but still. I feel like he has totally checked out of this part of the pregnancy and doesn't really want to discuss the fact that I have diabetes. I might as well have athletes foot the way he's going about it. Totally not caring or at least that's the way he's coming across.

On top of that, I researched a bit until I realized I should stop because I was just making myself more worried than I needed to be, that babies with mom's who don't have their diabetes controlled in the first few months of pregnancy have a higher risk for nural tube defects, and brain damage. I would die if I was undiagnosed with diabetes before we got pregnant and that it affected our baby and that I caused the baby to have any form of defects. So, yea John doesn't even know about that so who knows.

Overall he is great though. I don't want you to get the wrong impression that he doesn't care because he sure does!! He brings me my food every morning because he knows that I need food within minutes of waking up and knowing the kitchen makes me sick (to many smells). When I do get sick, he runs and gets a bowl for me just in case and turns on the fan and waits until it passes then helps me get food so that it doesn't come back. He really is a good hubby and has taken on more chores and helped with Aidan (making sure he is out of his nighttime diaper and in big boy underwear before he leaves for work). I just feel like he doesn't want to address something that could be major in this pregnancy and could TOTALLY affect this baby and every time we try and talk it ends with him getting frustrated and snapping like the snapping turtles. Oh well, I can always keep trying. He has to talk about it eventually. Otherwise its going to be a LONG 7 months until baby comes out.

Thanks for listening to me vent and complain about my sweet (most of the time ;) ) hubby. I had to get it off my chest. I'm sure this will all be resolved by this weekend sometime. After all we have to spend the weekend together. LOL!!! So, look for a blog later today or more than likely tomorrow about the 4th!!! Have a happy and safe 4th!!

Sad, sad news....BOO HOO HOO!!!

Ok, nothing major I promise or is it?? It all started when they asked me to do the glucose test at my 12 week appointment. I was a bit nervous about it. They said it was because Aidan was over 9#'s and because my BMI (body mass index) was over a certain point. I complied because of course I want to know if I am at risk or if I actually did have diabetes so that I could take care of myself and my unborn baby.

Long story short, I took the test on Monday morning after my appointment. I drank the nasty orange drink and thought I might lose my breakfast and got heartburn on top of that. Pretty picture I know but it happened. So I knew that I had to have my blood drawn an hour after I finished the nasty drink. So I drank it in the parking garage before my appointment. Aidan and my friends daughter that I'm watching this summer cheered me on. I had 5 minutes to down the nasty thing.

So I went to my appointment, Aidan had an accident, we HEARD the baby's heartbeat for the FIRST time!! That was the best part of the visit!! Then they gave me my lab slip so that I could get my blood drawn. Off we went. The first side they got the needle in the right spot but nothing came out at all. WEIRD!! I swear I am not an alien, or at least I don't think I am. Then another gal drew off the other side and sure enough magic!! It didn't even hurt when she poked me. The other side hurt though. Hmm, magic touch I think so.

Well last night I got the call from the midwife saying, "we got your lab results and please call so that we can go over them." It was 7pm when I got the message so I called at 8:02am. Not a minute later. Sure enough I was put straight through (the best part of calling at the time they open). So they like your sugars to be at 140, mine was are you ready for this?? 175!!! YIKES!! They said at 180 they don't hesitate to refer you. I had 2 options, just take the referral since I was so darn close or do the 3 hour test with 4 blood draws and more nasty drink. Guess what I took, the referral so now I get to do the "diabetic diet" and test my sugars and such. I don't know exactly what it will all entail, I'll post after that appointment, but as of now I am assuming at minimum it will be a diet change (what more can I change?? seriously) and possibly checking my sugars consistently. Just what I need another thing to do. UGH!!! Oh well, baby will be healthier because of it.

On the flip side they may do more u/s (ultrasounds) later in the pregnancy because of the diabetes. I was happy about that. The more opportunity to see my handsome OR beautiful child the better!! So yea that is what is going on with me!! Thinking about that lovely nasty drink makes me have heartburn...no fun. So, wish me luck as I start this journey of diabetes, let's hope that it doesn't continue after baby is born because I will be super sad if it does. Motivation to get in better shape after the little one is here?? I think so!! So here's what I am asking of all my 2 readers (if that). If anyone out there has or has had diabetes, gestational diabetes or has known anyone who has had it and can fill me in on what I'm up against that would be more than wonderful!! Either email or comment on here and let me know.

Oh and thank you for listening to me feel sorry for myself for a bit. I am giving myself today and maybe tomorrow to feel badly for myself and then I'm going to suck it up and get on with life. Can't feel badly for myself forever right?!! On the flip side I had the BEST sandwich on the face of the earth for lunch, it was a croissant and I put a bit of mayo and honey mustard on it then a bit of cheese and ham. Only thing missing was lettuce. So that was the best part of today so far. I'm tired haven't been sleeping well lately, to hot to and I have to use the bathroom ALL the stinking time. So, anyhoo, I think I still need something because apparently that sandwich didn't fill me up. I'm tempted to eat another but I think I'll opt for fruit first and see if that helps. I'll try and wait until we go in the pool for another sandwich so that I have something to help me last until dinner. Hope you are all having a wonderful summer!!

97 degree heat...the apartment was that hot too....

Ok, so as many people might know, this past weekend was a killer in Seattle. It was 97 degrees on Saturday and 95 on Sunday. We left the fans on all day and night and nothing helped. Not even having the window's open. It wouldn't be so bad if I weren't prego but since I am and have a built in heater, it's a little overwhelming. Currently our apartment is 85 degrees and when we woke up it was 79 degrees. Yesterday it was 75. We have 5 fans and I am trying to find as many more as possible so that I can plug them in ANYWHERE. I swear our energy bill will be around the same as in the winter for this summer. Which is frustrating because we don't even have the heat on.

So we have been going to restaurants, stores, the pool, and my mom's house and using the Elmo sprinkler to try and stay cool. Going out to eat is killer because everything is SO expensive but I refuse to turn on my oven and don't really know how to cook on the BBQ not to mention that we have a bunch of stuff on our deck blocking our BBQ because we had the carpets cleaned this weekend and haven't moved it inside quite yet. So as for dinner tonight, not sure what will happen but we might end up out again....we can't afford to go out this much but its to terribly hot and the AC does feel heavenly. We might have to indulge one more night of eating out. Ahh, but we have to pay rent too...decisions. Rent will obviously win out but maybe it will be cereal for dinner tonight or something along those lines. If anyone has any good HOT weather foods that you recommend PLEASE PLEASE send them my way. I have made taco salads and am very tired of them at this point. Try and stay cool wherever you are!!

160 and things are going well!!

So I had my 12 week appointment today and I took both Aidan and Makenna (my friend Alexa's daughter that is hanging out with us for the summer). The second we got there while I was checking in Aidan decided to wet his pants. UGH!!! Of course I had absolutely no clothes with me. Of all days. Oops. It even looked like he sat in the pool or the bathtub and got soaked. So we got back to the room and they did my blood pressure, my weight all of that and everything was great!! I have currently gained 0 pounds this pregnancy and I am actually down 2-3 pounds from pre-pregnancy. I know I need to gain weight for the baby but at the same time, I sort of hope I don't gain any. They were happy with everything.

The best part was when we tried for the baby's heartbeat. Aidan and Makenna anxiously awaited as did I!! It was hard to find at first but then there it was!! She said it was a bit quiet because baby is so small but it will get louder as the baby gets bigger. She said it was around 160 beats per minute!! The kids thought it was pretty cool.

Oh on top of everything, because Aidan was over 9 pounds at birth and because my BMI (Body Mass Index) was above a certain point they wanted me to do the glucose screening at the beginning of the pregnancy to make sure that I don't have gestational diabetes. So, I chugged that nasty orange drink in the parking garage before I went into my appointment and then after I had to have my blood drawn exactly an hour after I drank the stuff. The first vein they tried nothing came out and she was in the right spot and everything....talk about frustrating for both her and I. So another gal came in and tried the other arm and sure enough it worked!! I was deemed to have small "hidden" veins. When I was a baby I had slippery veins, but haven't had any problems since. Oh well.

After the blood draws, we headed to the cafeteria and got lunch so that we could just come home to our 85 degree apartment and have Aidan take his nap, not to mention that I needed food NOW. I hadn't had anything to eat since 6:30am. Now we are obviously home and Aidan is napping and Makenna is doing puzzles while I do this post. We have to go over our week and see what we are going to do throughout the week. Hope you are all enjoying this weather!! Keep an eye open around July 25th for another update. That is my next appointment unless I fail the glucose test then I would have to go for the 3 hour test and drink that nasty stuff every hour and have my blood drawn. Icky...oh well.

L....O.....N.....G......E......S......T day of the year!!!

So today was the LONGEST day of the year!! Woo hoo!! It was a beautiful day at that. We had 88 degree weather and sun all day. I had to work at 6am which was fine but Aidan was wired and wouldn't calm down to lay down wiht me until we had to wake up the kiddo's. I didn't get to snooze unfortunately and was extra tired today. When we got home he played around in the front room while I took a 2 hour nap. I love that my child is perfectly content to play and not get into things and let me get my rest. He understands that the baby is making Mommy exhuasted lately and that I need to nap sometimes.

Once I woke up he and I ate lunch and then he went and took his nap. We had to pick up Miss Em at school since today was her last day of school for the sumemr!! She was pretty excited needless to say. So we got home and waited for the UPS woman (today it was a gal) to deliver the package that we were expecting from my biological grandma. We got a full set of silverware that she had bought for my biological mom for when she got married but she never did. So she asked if I would like it and of course I said sure!!

So once the UPS gal came we headed to the pool and it was chilly but refreshing. You got use to the chilly water. So we stayed there until almost 6pm. 2 1/2 hours of pool fun and Jim and Autumn joined us so Aidan had someone to watch and play with and I had someone to talk to. We ended the evening with a yummy BBQ'd meal that John BBQ'd and some yummy rice. A nice way to end a HOT day. If only we had some watermelon to go with dinner.....

It was a BEAUTIFUL day today!

So, today was absolutely amazing here in Redmond! It was sunny and HOT, or at least compared to what it has been that is. So we had a great day overall. We started off the morning by watching cartoons and then getting up and eating (Aidan had already eaten but I needed to so I wouldn't get sick). After we were 100% ready for our day we headed to Macy's. We have a wedding we are going to this weekend and I have a bridal shower in 3 weeks so I got both gifts while I was there. All in one trip. We didn't take the stroller so I was a bit nervous how Aidan would do. He was AWESOME!! After we bought our gifts, we went and got a pretzel and played on the toys for a little while.

We headed home and he took a nap while I just relaxed. It felt good not having anything to do. So, after the nap we packed everything in the car and headed to Idylwood park to play in the lake and sand. Aidan had a blast!! I was able to sit and relax and read my magazine, although I think I need an actual chair next time but it was fun!! We were there for almost 2 1/2 hours. We then came home because Aidan had to go potty half way home. So, by that point, I was so tired that making dinner was out of the question. So we went to one of John and my favorite hole in the wall restaurants and got dinner to go!!



We met John at Anderson park where we were yesterday and ate and let Aidan play for 15 minutes or so. Then it was time to come home to go to bed so that we can be up early to go to Emmy & Na-Na's house at 6am. Aidan wanted to stay at the park all day though. Poor guy. Keep your fingers crossed for nice weather so we can go back tomorrow!! So needless to say, the high of 67 here in Seattle ended up being 80!! We took FULL advantage. We hope you all did too! Also for more pics from today check our dropshots!! I'm trying to upload more often and to be more on the ball!!

Father's Day!

First off, I want to wish my sweet hubby a very Happy Father's Day. I hope it was as fun as you wanted.

So, today, we didn't do a whole lot. We took Aidan in the pool here at the complex for a swim even though it was barely 64 degrees out. Brrr....his poor chin kept going up and down. So after that we stuck our feet in the hot tub so that he could warm up. I wasn't feeling much like swimming so I was dubbed the photographer and towel getter today. We then came home and Aidan napped and John and I got KFC for lunch. We were hoping to go to Acropolis but they didn't answer the phones. Boo, we haven't had that in FOREVER and its one of our favorite little almost hole in the wall restaurants!! Spendy so we hardly go there but worth EVERY penny.

So when Aid woke up, I heard a funny noise and went to investigate. He was reading his new book that reads to him. He got that from Grandma & Grandpa for his birthday. It was cute, he was obviously not awake yet but still listening to a story.
So we hung out until John had to go to work. We then went to the park but Perrigo had NO parking whatsoever!! WE decided that Anderson might be better so we went and sure enough I got a spot right by the entrance. Yahoo!! Even better the car was in the shade the entire time. We played for about an hour before I was to warm and tired of sitting on a hard bench (picnic blanket, snacks, sunblock, a good book and hats will come next time too). We decided to go get a special treat. Aidan got a kid's cone at Dairy Queen and I got a small blizzard. Still can't finish one of them. But they did have my favorite flavor or kind, Snickers!! Yea!! So Aidan was just funny after he ate because I swear he had more on his face than in his tummy.

We ran one more errand to return a movie and check another one out, I will get through Medium before July all seasons!! Now we are home and it is still beautiful out, but we are watching a movie because I needed a break. I was feeling a bit lightheaded and such. Besides I need to fix dinner soon, I was thinking breakfast for dinner certainly sounds great to me!! So we'll probably have that soon. I don't have to worry about what John wants for dinner since he is at work. He started at 4pm today and works until rush is over or maybe a bit later. Who knows. I'll cook some mashed potatoes for him and he can finish the yummy crockpot ham from the other day, if you want the recipe email me or leave a comment, Aidan could seriously make it it's that easy!! So, hope you all had a wonderful Father's day and that your dad's all felt special!!! Enjoy the photos!